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Something Was Missing

Throughout my life, I was privileged to be a successful executive, public speaker, and producer in the entertainment and technology industries for over two decades. I have had a blessed life so far, traveled around the world, and met many interesting people in my career on the cutting edge of what society deemed was "next" or ‘the future”.

As I kept climbing multiple corporate ladders at numerous companies, I couldn't help but ask myself, why wasn't I excited about what was "next" in my life? Where did the spark for life that burned passionately inside me as a young girl go? You know, the one where you are unstoppable and feel like you can do anything? that light.

My light, or what little was left of it, was dimming fast each year as I continued to be what everyone thought I should be instead of who God made me to be. In fact, I was on the cusp of completely burning out for a second time in my career and was drifting further away from who I was originally created to be through "check-listing” my way through life. You know, where you make a list of achievements that look good on paper or like you are accomplishing amazing things that sound great at dinner parties, but deep down know you aren't doing anything that really matters.

Is this It?

I remember driving down PCH to my office one day, staring at the beautiful California coast, when a question kept knawing at me.

"God, is this it?" Guilt sprinkled over me as I heard those words escape my mouth. I thought about how so many people would kill to live in Los Angeles and work in an exciting industry such as tech or entertainment. However, it wasn't the industry that was the problem; it was me. I was not aligned with God's will in my life.

I had a career, a husband, an office on the beach, so who was I to complain? But I couldn't lie to myself. I felt drained and exhausted, but wasn't sure why or what the problem was.

Nothing Was What It Seemed

Just then, in 2017, I was shocked out of my mundane routine by the tragic news that my sister-in-law was diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia. For ten months, she battled with this excruciating disease, and in late 2018, she lost the fight. Little did I know this was only the beginning of a long streak of loss and devastation.

In 2019, I was faced with the news that my marriage was failing and my husband had led a double life for the majority of our twenty-year relationship. My whole world crumbled right in front of my eyes. Everything I trusted in my adult life was now completely broken down to dust.

I grew up in a long line of divorce, adultery, addiction, and betrayal and vowed I would never let any of those things into my marriage or home. But they did. All the generational curses I hoped to avoid were alive and well in my house and I didn't even know it. While I was thriving in business, my personal life was a mess.

And just like that, in an instant, I fell off my high horse onto my knees, broken and betrayed, wondering where to go and what to do. I no longer had what I thought was a happy home, a marriage, no children, and was deep in a career that I wasn’t passionate about but was successful. This was my rock bottom. Or so I thought.

Then came COVID! There I was locked away trying to rebuild but continued to drown in isolation.

Coming out of the COVID-19 pandemic in 2021, I suffered yet another unexpected blow. I received a call that one of my dearest and closest friends, who was only 42 years old, had passed away unexpectedly. I was finding it hard to understand what GOD was doing and if this was some sort of punishment for not appreciating my life before. I was losing hope and was growing tired of waiting on God to turn my situation for good, as the scripture says. I was lost, and no matter what I had achieved in the past, this type of pain cut so deep I had no choice but to let go and let God start to rebuild my life the way he always intended. My ways were not his ways, and they were no longer working.

Not Setbacks, Setups!

I didn't know, but I understand now that God was delivering on his promises and had already begun working things for my good. These were not setbacks; they were setups!

On New Year's Eve 2022, I spent the night alone on my couch. Married people I knew, who I spent years with in the past, already had their own plans, and I was too freshly out of leaving my marriage to join a new singles club for divorcees. With no clue what I was going to do next, I decided to bring in the New Year a little differently. I would do something I had always wanted but seemed corny and unpopular in the past. Instead of watching all the celebrations around the world on TV at someone's house party or going to a random event where I would most assuredly end up kissing a stranger in my freshly wounded state of mind, I stayed home and would bring in 2022 with God.

I watched a church service and tithed what little money I had to my name, since divorce is expensive, crying out to God, saying, "Here I am. It is just you and me, God. I will give you everything I’ve got."

It was time to wake up, get up, and start living again. But not my way, God's way. I wasn't waiting on Him; he was waiting on me. I couldn't change the past, resurrect my marriage, or bring my loved ones back to life, but I could change my future.

I decided I needed to live every day to the fullest. Time is so precious, and I didn't want to waste one more minute of this GOD-given life being anything but what God wants me to be and doing what God wants me to do. Everything I thought was stable had been crushed. This was the only way for God to return me to my roots. He needed to break me and pull me out of Egypt. He took my broken pieces and dust and began to mold me back to who he originally wanted me to be. I knew he had a plan but couldn't see it yet. I wanted to start my next chapter by building something bigger than myself and giving GOD glory. I longed desperately to find that spark inside of me that used to fill my days with joy and wonder as a child when all things seemed possible. It was time to step out in faith and act upon the many dreams he had placed in my heart. It was time to start living the life he created me for rather than living a life everyone else wanted for me.

Pre-Destined

This path led me to you! Right here, right now, writing this biography and contemplating my next step into the great unknown yet perfect splendor of God's purpose for my life. You are not here by accident. There are no accidents in GOD's perfect orchestration and timing. This biography is a living document since my story is still being written. Today, it is October 21st, 2024, and I just finished my first draft of a novel and decided to finally bring this website to life!

I am happily re-married to a new husband who loves God as much, if not more than I do. I inherited two wonderful teenagers I was blessed with through my husband and his previous marriage, which God truly does restore the years locusts have eaten since I did not have children in my last marriage.

What I know now is…I am a child of GOD above all things who want to see others live a purpose-filled life, cares about life's pain and setbacks we go through as we walk out our human experience, and ultimately wants to commit to staying on the path GOD has set before me, never looking back.

On My Faith Journey…

My hope for this site is to share, discover, and testify about how God is alive today as a collective. I am here to say God sees you and hears your prayers. The question is, can we all have enough faith to take the time to connect, see, and hear him?

At heart, I am a storyteller, and I cannot think of a better story to write than one about an authentic life, walking along a path set by GOD, revealing one chapter at a time with you!

What's Next….I have learned to leave that part to God. :)

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,

Plans to prosper you and not to harm you.

Plans to give you hope and a future.